Happy^^ and Frustrated :x

PHEWW !! Today , i broke up with Jack , because i can't take it anymore ... I quarreled with Illfa and she said it was just a joke . What the ? Can you even take this joke ? She is being so mean ! But nevermind .I dun give a fvck about her . XD So after awhile we patch .. He ask for it . I still like him . I ask for break and Jack was like , okay .. Then Aisa , Zarreen and I , walk to the gate to go out of school . Before walking out , i cried and i hugged Aisa . Blondelle(Angelo Gf) , Zalynn and Aiko came to me and ask i just keep quiet .. We walk away and we hang around ..... Make me quite happy XD That's all for today ! XD

Knew bad things bout besties ,

Today , I was with my boyfriend and Illfa and Jetaime(illfa bf) , Ryfa and Aisa . We were near the first floor toilet in school . I just a kiss from my boyfriend  I bet with Illfa that is i kiss My bf which is Jack , if i kiss him on the lips , she will gave to . So she bet and it was a okay . I kiss and he turn away because he was talking to jetaime . I kiss again and i told her it's her turn . She didnt repl me back ... So i said again , she said it's public . I was like what the fuck . I walk away with Aisa and Ryfa . Then we walked to freztea . A shop that sells food and drinks . When we were near there , Jetaime and Illfa hug while walking . I thought it was public and she cant ? Ryfa went back home so Aisa and I were like what the fuck is wrong with her . I found out that illfa told Jack that , "i thought of helping you to get closer with isabel(which is me), i will try my best . If not you will have to stead with that girl which is Aisa ." She is a best of mine and she is so mean . Last time she wasn't like that ... Then , thay force me to kiss Jack . Is love about this ? Love is about kissing each other touching each other ? No right . That means , she dun understand what is love and she think that it should be like that . She is being an extra to other people relaytionship . Have she ever thought if i were the one who do that to her , how would she feel ? How would i feel ? How would Aisa feel ? She is so mean . That is what friends is not about . Illfa is trying to get close to me and forgetting about Ryfa and Aisa . Because i am one of the girlfriend among Jack , Jetaime and Angelo 'gang'. They are best friend .. So yeah .. Is so bad to know the truth some times . But , God made this happen to us to see how would we react . Our future , now , past is like a picture frame . Once you paint it , it is hard to repair it . Whenever you paint it , is either you pan it or you didn't . Some people are fickle minded, following friends , some are plan properly , some planned but didn't work . That is why life is like this ... That is why friends are important when you friend this person , how  you are influenced by .... Life is always unfair ..

11/10/11

Hey guys , It's been so long since i blog . I been preparing for my exams . (PSLE) Now , I am free . i try to be like last time to blog everyday . ^^ It's been really tough to be prepared . Once PSLE end , it will be the beginning for us . I been through a lot of process .. I learn to be strong . Now i met a guy and we started to be together on 28/9/11 . IT happen alot of things from this days .. I cant get through it . nobody understands me . Soemone could , he cant it is really been a sad story . . But , it's great now . ^^ Blogg !!!

Forget to blog ytd .. Nothing really happen . So , i didn't blog . So , sorry . :'(

I had fun and i played with chloe , elvie , rachel . really fun , i am really enjoyed  We were crazy . Elvie was just watching us . cos , he is still a 2- years old child . We sang , dance , take some picture . FUn ! i wanted more this days because i could hardly think of him when i really had fun . Isabel<3

Hahas ! Finally , Sorrows are swayed away and now , he etche din my memory . He is part of my heart that contains more than others . We are impposible .. So , i needa find another boii , which i did it already . Maybe i will forget about him . So erm , God blees me !:D

I cried when i saw you . I was with Illfa . I saw you and i was very delighted but, not the way it should be . I went to the toilet and let out one of my tears and i went out the toilet washing my hands . forget to wash my tears and i was crying again  Illfa saw ad she was shocked . i send her home and saw you . But you looked at me and ran to the west coast plaza overhead bridge . i wonder why ? i was in love with another guy . But thank you . Now , i understand love . Really , the more you like , the more hurt you have . i was on the phone , i saw you and i almost let out my tears but , i saw you running, delivering food . i was like , i didn't want to see you like that . But , i let my tears drop when i reach home . Maybe i am really in love with you , deeply . I want to stop , but i cant . i remember the happy moments but when it come to an end , i cried . I wish i didn't stead with you .i wanna be a friend of yours . But , my fade with you just end like that . I wish our friendship and love could last longer . but , i didn't thought that it's so short . I wanna talk to you , touch your hair , listen to your funny words . Listen to your dao li . i wanted you . My love to you cannot describe . I lied to all my friends that i didn't like him , especially , Yan ting .. Sorry , i didn't mean to , i hope you will forgive me . nobody knows that i am still in love with him . But if you see my blog you will know . Maybe you dunno who the person is . I really like you . i have a feeling when i saw you but i ermm , cant describe it . I wish i could forget you .. I will be crying all over again ..

I love him ! ^^

I fall in love with him so fast .. Maybe i dun really like him .. As i think i still cared about someone .. I dunno who izzit , but i am clear that i like him . That's all i want to know if he likes me anot . Sigh , He sure wont accept .. We seldom see each other and not quite know each other .. Maybe that's the reason why . Hahas . Let's see than . Hmmm .. That Jamie also dunno write what to him .. I must ask Either him or her . LOl !

Have Fun ! Letting go of him already .:D

Wow ! Today , i went SWIMMING with my friends ! So fun ! Love swimming so much :D

Hahas , Thinking less about him already . :D Maybe is because i still like him .. (another guy) :D hahas . Only you !!!!

Fun , I miss him too ...

It's a fun day today ! I cook at my mum house at , Bukit Batok s 33 :D they said it was nice .. hhas . Enjoyed the food . Pray to god too . :D

Gosh ! I miss him again .. I can't believe  i can said ," i am happy that i broke up with him . " Hahas , Sorry jing xuan , i lied to you .. I still like him , with my whole heart.... My min is all about him , when i was cooking the dinner ... My Mum was like , What are you thinking , concentrade .. I was shock so i went on concentrading on the cooking but , i cant ... Maybe i can say , no one can replace you in my heart .. Maybe ... Forget it than... It's just a relaytionship .. Sometimes , i console(when i am gonna cry) myself that it's just a relationship , it'e nothing , you can find another boy .. Sometimes it wok , sometime it, didn't .. i crid . Maybe , i shed the tears from my eyes isworthless ,, but i still think that it worth for him .. Sigh , for me .. Sorry friends , that i lied to you .

Broke ! :'(

I just broke up with him .. Thinking that i can last long with him .. But , no . It's me , thinking that . How silly of me . Thanks Siyi . I will remember this memorable days with him . I will remember it, always .. We were once together... I told jing xuan that i am happy that he broke with me cos i didn't like him anymore .. What a lie .. Dun meet again , Dun sms again , Dun call again , lets not think that we know each other anymore ... Nice . it's a wonderful one to hurt . Thanks all friends ... but , it'sin vain ...

i'm Worried ! :'(

I am scared that i might lose him .. I thought that we could last long ... Maybe , my thinking maybe wrong , although i like him very much , i think this should be the problem .. He dosen't like me ? What he wanna say .. I have been waiting for him to tell me what he want to say .. I am tempted to know about it ... Come on ... I want to know .... I have been waiting for Hours ! Just for your sms , Whenever my phone vibrates , i thought it's you .. But to my dissappointment , it's not you . I hope that you can send me a sms back so that i know what you wanna say .. i want to think the positive way , but the negative thinking makes me feel that the positive one is not better ... I choose to believe the negative one ... Please tell me what you want ... Dun make me guess anymore ..



Forget ! I miss Him !

Oh gosh , i forget to post what happen yesterday ... Actually , It's nothing about it .. :D I was just at home doing my homework . As i didn't do my holiday homework . I also took pictures of myself . So , it's not quite a good memory of last day of holiday . LOl !

I miss Him ! I can't even chat with him yesterday ... Totally ! This morning , I was going to meet him but , i was late . I wish i had taken one step faster . he didn't even know i am blogging everyday , missing him .. I wonder if he did ... I wanna see him just that time as i could'nt see him that often anymore .... I miss him more than words can say . I wanted him to be with me the whole time . (This post is for today ! )

Wah !!

Hahas ! Going to go Orchard to see the people who acts for the On the fringe II so happy about it . Jing xuan coming to my house to see my nice nice clothes and take some nice glasses must wear until very Nice . LOl ! But it's kinda fun .. Hope to see them !! I'll blog and type out what happen tonight !(on the same post)




Wah !! Seriously , we went to Orchard there and saw all the teenage people acting the On the fringe II , Kimberly is so pretty . Ian so shuai ! Wah , all so pretty and Shuai ! but they only in Orchard for 21minutes ... Not really that good , but at least we saw them . :D We also bought Geek Specs and we even neo print at Orchard . Really , we have fun ! Pictures of geeks ..(below)

I HAVE FUN !

Went to GA with Kimberly . Seriously , we played Audition for 2 hours and really have fun . I think we like siao . After go eat Subway food than go listen he storytelling than after go to the 725 playground . Play like siao , singing , waiting for people to give us money . LOl , kids looking at us , enjoying thesinging of ours . We even dance the Because of you (dance central) by Neyo . Old people , Children looking at us , in the end , Go back home . Hahas . Alwalys go 725 playground , i will go crazy . LOl . The playground to make me happy . :D So happy today . Maybe when i am sad , i can visit 725 playground . ENJOY !

I Love Him

I felt sad when Bing gan said that he dun like me .. I felt like i wanted to die .. But , in the end , he told me that he like me . Love is resistence . I may be crazy over him but , it's always like that , Love is going on forever . i will be happy with him . :D Couples , be happy ! Bless you .